Wednesday, April 21, 2010

2 years

Today marks 2 years officially free from TB!

Two years ago this week I was finally discharged from the hospital where I was treated for the previous 4 years. I know some of you may think I go on about this too much, but it really left its mark on me and it feels encouraging to be able to celebrate another year free. With each year that passes I imagine I will begin to feel less and less scared that it'll come back to consume me again. I'm not there yet, but 2 years free is encouraging.

15 comments:

T.D. Newton said...

I disagree that you possibly could go on about this "too much."

Your release from the hospital (and from the disease) represents a very real and tangible victory. Somewhat like being released from a prison, I would assume, except that you don't have the specter of being an ex-convict hanging over your head forever. Liberation is what it is, and it is a healthy thing to celebrate.

I think it's good that you're taking a bit of time to reflect now. Not just about turning 24, or about getting married, or about your release, but so you can see how your life has changed so much. I've had a few of those moments myself, in the past 5 years. As you get older you'll have more, but the might not all be as positive, so enjoy it while you can! :)

Léa said...

Happy birthday !
Bisous ;)

Princesse Ecossaise said...

TD You know what? I have to agree with you. (And actually have been reflecting on one element of my life that I feel has changed for the worse over the past few years, so I understand that not all of these are good!) I am someone who really likes to analyse and reflect on these big things that happen in my own life. When something goes wrong, I try to find the silver lining of the cloud and to reflect on it so in terms of the disease I keep thinking back to how difficult life was back then and how easy (in comparison) I have it now. I also really like to reflect on how it changed me as a person and made me become stronger and well...my views on life changed hugely because of that and I never want to lose the more positive outcomes from being ill, otherwise it would all have been for nothing.

However I am painfully aware that some people wish I would stop banging on about it. To them it's over, it's done and there's nothing else to say on the matter.

And then there's the people who can't possibly begin to understand why I reflect so much on all these life experiences because a) they themselves haven't ever lived through something that changed their mentality or b) quite simply, they are just not that kind of person.

I could write an essay on this! But just wondering...maybe I love to write because I'm such a reflective person? I mull over past experiences, feelings, emotions, actions, the who's, the where's, the when's and, particularly, the why's. Hmm...

T.D. Newton said...

I mull over past experiences, feelings, emotions, actions, the who's, the where's, the when's and, particularly, the why's.

No, this is why you're a GOOD writer. I may not be the most empathetic person in the world, but constant reflection, introspection, and analysis does help me to understand what my characters should be feeling, and I'm sure that applies to you too.

I'm not the only one who sees potential in your sincere writing, it's why you have so many fans. We're all holding our breath, waiting for you to take it to the next level. :)

Princesse Ecossaise said...

Aww thank you for saying that! That's encouragement if ever I saw it! I hppe, so, so badly, that I will get my ass into gear and take it to the next level. I'm such a procrastinator it's unbelievable...

Can't wait to meet you and Micah (not Meeeeka! I gotta stop calling her that!) we are gonna get on like a house on fire!

T.D. Newton said...

Hey, writing in your spare time pays off. I'm living proof of that. The Ninth Avatar took like 4 years to fully finish, so don't rush things. Plus, you're only 24 (yes, I said ONLY), meaning you've got a lot of living left to do. Chill out.

Yes, she told me about the whole Micah/Meeeeeka thing. I call her Meeeka sometimes as a joke, mostly because people constantly misspell and mispronounce her name. It's not a big deal, just don't mispronounce mine ;)

Princesse Ecossaise said...

I will probably end up calling you TD instead of Todd! You might call me princesse though! :-p

T.D. Newton said...

You'd be the only one to ever call me that aloud, but it would be kind of funny to refer to each other as our "blog handles."

Princesse Ecossaise said...

It would be funny at first but then if you go around calling me princess on my wedding day, I think people would start asking questions haha!

T.D. Newton said...

I think proper protocol would be more like "your royal highness" or something of that nature. People don't really call people "Princess," do they?

Princesse Ecossaise said...

They do use it as an affectionate term here in france and back home. It's usually reserved for a little girl or a girlfriend / spouse / luvaaa!

On the other hand it can be totally derogatory (sp?) and used for spoiled brats, which wouldn't go down too well either!

Please feel free to call me your royal highness though. Maybe you could start a trend!

T.D. Newton said...

Only if you refer to me as "World Famous Author."

And yes, I know Princess can be used as a term of endearment or sarcastically... we do that here, too. In fact, Micah and I call Suki "Princess" all the time... among the hundreds of other names we have for our dogs.

Princesse Ecossaise said...

I shall call you 'world famous author' but after a couple of glasses of bubbly I think it might be a bit of a mouthful, so I may have to revert to 'TD' or maybe I'll call you 'WFA'!

I feel honoured to share a nickname with your doggie!

T.D. Newton said...
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T.D. Newton said...

Frick, working now. Sorry about that "test" comment. I was getting 404's.

Anyway, what I WAS going to say is that Suki's nickname in that context is actually "Princess Pumpkin Patch." Once you finish laughing, here are a few more that we *actually* say out loud:

Leo von Poopypants
Suki van der Pukeson
Little Puppy Lick-Lick (sung aloud to Little Bunny Foo-Foo)