Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Nothing to See Here

I'm sorry for the silence around here recently. I can't seem to write, I can't find the words to describe how I am feeling and I can't relax enough to let even the easiest of words flow.

There are so many changes happening in my life right now. I can't quite fathom how the sick, hopeless, unemployed girl from four months ago is about to start a 9-5 job in a different country, living an adult life. This is what I really want, I've always wanted this, and when I was really sick, this was the dream that kept me pushing through. But it's all so very fast and it's just so odd.

Bloody hell I'm sorry, I just can't write.

15 comments:

T.D. Newton said...

You worry way too much. People will wait for you to have something to say. Hell, we're fine watching weird videos of your cat.

It sounds like things are just happening a bit fast for you but in another 4 months I bet you will have adjusted and calmed down just fine. Relax.

Loth said...

But that's the joy of blogging. You do it when you feel like it, when you want to, when you feel you have something you want to say out loud. And when you don't, you don't. Chill out, enjoy your life and we'll be here when you want to chat.

sugar007 said...

Just go with it. If you think about it too much you will feel scared. Take it as it comes, that is all you can do. Oh and remember to enjoy the fear and anticipation of the big unknown.

Princesse Ecossaise said...

aww guys you are the best. I know everyone says if you don't feel like writing anything in your blog then don't, but I really wanted to write, I just couldn't find the words!

Have been freakin' out with all the stuff to do in the next week or so before I leave and I think tonight I went a bit crazy! Actually it could be the fact that I've got my driving exam on Thursday that's done it.

So much to do, so little time along with the fact that two blog friends have written sad posts that made me freak out about my own decisions - http://samdebretagne.blogspot.com/2008/04/one-in-which-my-life-becomes-one-big.html and http://correresmidestino.com/takes-a-second-to-say-goodbye/ made me get a little weird. But I've taken some deep breaths, spoken to FP who reassured me and I'm a little less stressed out.

Except for the driving exam part - oh no!

TD haha those cat vids are so ridiculously crazy cat lady!! Also, am quite looking forward to 4 months time. I think by then the hardest part will be over, or nearly over and I will be settling in.

Loth that's really sweet, thanks for that comment it made me smile! Hope your foot is recovering!!!

Sugar I'm back to being excited about the unknown again, and the baguettes!!! x

Ångele said...

Keep going. Your dream is finally in your hands and it is all up to you to make it wonderful.

This is something new... Some sort of new beginning and new beginnings are always filled with promises :)

Princesse Ecossaise said...

Angele you are so right, so, so right, this is a new beginning and it's up to me to turn my dream into reality! Thank you for your encouraging words!

Despina said...

Darling I think I would be feeling exactly the same in your situation. You know I'm here for you.
Change, no matter whether it's for the better or for the worse, can be very scary.
Good luck with the driving!
Love you to bits babe xxxxxxx

Ghosty said...

What are we gonna do? Come to Paris and make you blog? (Actually, that would never happen, because everyone would laugh at me getting my tail kicked by a wee girl.)

I concur, we'll take a weird cat video in the interim. :)

Saffron said...

I know what's your feeling. In a week my life has become completely different. I'm both happy and sad at the same time.
Good luck, you'll be fine.

Stratford Girl said...

Sending you blog hugs! Don't put pressure on yourself to write... we'll still be here!
xx

Zhu said...

Don't worry ma petite (I can call you like that, I'm 3 years older!), you'll be great. Just need time to adjust!

I felt the same when I started teaching... felt odd. Yet I'm still there two years later!

Bonnie said...

I am sure you will figure it all out, although I have to say, it would be quite daunting to move to another country and start a new job, esp when the language spoken is not your first language. Brave gal! Wishing you all the luck in the world that it is going to be an exciting and happy journey for you!

jenn said...

Maybe a meme would help you get back in the groove? I've tagged you for one on my blog.
So check it out, and see what you think!

Anonymous said...

hi!!!
So what is the exciting new job going to be??

busymomsjournal@gmail.com said...

Hey...just take a deep breath. It's okay to feel nervous and out of sorts when you're making big changes. Things that are worthwhile are never easy. But you are so brave and young and talented...you have so many wonderful, exciting surprises and experiences ahead of you. I'm 48 (aaacccckkk) and I really wish I'd done what you're doing when I was your age. Go for it!