To miss -
To regret the absence or loss of
As in; I miss you
I sit in the bed he slept in for the past week and I look around me. He tidied up before he left; made the bed, tucked the corners of the white sheets under the mattress and folded the extra towels neatly, placing them at the end of the bed as he found them the day he arrived.
My laptop warms my legs as I burrow myself into the bed which seems so large now he’s not here. The pillow still holds his scent, and is now covered in mascara from the tears that have spilled from my cheeks.
I thought that the airport goodbyes would become less upsetting the more we had to deal with them. I suppose I was wrong. As he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me softly, I realised this would never get any easier. We stood at the entrance to Passport Control, his beautiful, blue eyes smiled down at me and I forced myself to hide my sorrow.
And then he was gone. Walking slowly towards Security and joining the queue, pausing once or twice to smile back at me. I held back the tears, watching as he disappeared out of sight when my façade fell to pieces in an instant. My bottom lip quivered and tears burned my eyelids before escaping to trickle down my cheeks, leaving hot, dark mascara coloured streaks.
And now I’m alone.
To Love -
A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person
As in; I love you
Saturday, August 18, 2007
To miss -